June 2001

June 25

God,

   You have been doing so much in my life and I just want to take the time to write it all down. Towards the end of school you sort of kicked me out of my comfort zone. Derek made the comment that I never heard about any of the FCA meetings and the captain sits at our table! I felt horrible. So, for the FCA retreat I went to every table and told them about the meeting. I was scared but you were with me. During that time you taught me to see others through your eyes. That makes it easier to love people. Well, as my love grew for the lost I went to M-Fuge again this year and it was awesome. We went to Mobile, Alabama. I was in creative ministries. We put on a program for kids and senior adults. They loved it. The first day I talked to a girl named Lelanie. We were doing a puzzle together. I started talking to her hoping for an opportunity to tell her about you and Jesus and what you did for us. The chance never came. Well, I didn't feel like you wanted me too anyway. I kept praying that you would give me the words to say. Harmony, our leader, said it was time to go. I was so disappointed and I felt guilty. But later you just gave me a peace about the whole thing. You reminded me that maybe in that moment, all Lelanie needed was a friend. That was great. Then the next day at the nursing home I saw how you restored Zelda and gave her joy even though she is all alone in this world. Then later seeing a 98 year old man close his eyes, clap and praise you just made me smile. To think when I'm that old you still won't have changed and I will still praise you. M-Fuge was a chance to get out of my comfort zone completely and practice being social, get to know people and talk to them. It was totally you God. Also, in the past couple of months I have become really good friends with John. We hang out together and have awesome conversations. His mom is the coolest. She joins in on our conversation. We have awesome fellowship. It's so great to have a friend like him. Also, I'm at Buckner now!! It's awesome, and the kids are great! It's so awesome to teach them things. Also, this past year and the friendship I made with Julia was the greatest ever! She and her family are a blessing to me! Thank you God for giving her to me. I needed a friend like her this past year. God, I still want to love you more. My focus isn't always on you and I want it to be. I want to stop trying to impress anyone else and start bringing you glory in everything I do. I want to worship you completely. I know deep down that I truly do mean the words but then I start singing for others to hear me or for others to think "wow she really worships her God." I just want to come before you honestly and love you and praise you. I love you God.
Heart with cross,
Cara
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live. The life I live in the body I live by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave himself for me.  Galatians 2:20
LIVE BY FAITH!!!

1 John 2:1                       1 John 3:6->you can't lose your salvation; you never had it
1 John 2:19               
Irrevocable Salvation      John 15:2
John 10:27                       Heb 10:26   Matt 24:13
Romans 11:29                 Heb 6:4