November 1
Dear God,
I need your help. I need to be humble. Well, I'm just going to tell you an overview of what went on so I can pray for real. Out loud. My hip hurts. B-ball was fun 2day. So was soccer. I got 26th at the cross country meet on Sat.. That wasn't very good. Like I said, humiliation. I need to do something for Candice. Well, I'm really sleepy so I'm gonna go pray now. I love you.
(Heart with cross),
Cara
November 2
Dear Dear God,
I finished the book of James last night. It was great. You answered my prayer. Now I'm reading 1 Peter.
Peter means "rock".
It talked about how you are a stone and the church rejected you for they are building a church.
I'm going to try and and have a quiet time in the morning too. That would be great. I really need to start my day with you. I'm not very pleased w/ my report card. God, please help me to do better. God, help me to do well in b-ball and soccer too. Well, gotta go!!
(Heart with cross),
Cara
PS I'm going 2 pray 4 real.
Dear God,
I will say this again and it won't be the last:
U R AWESOME!
OK, first I was giving Ashley a ride home and she asked me for some advice about guys. I gave her my advice about Levi and Clint. At church we watched a movie called "Vanished". It made me want to witness so bad. Well, I already got to talk to two people! Ashley and Kaitlin. I went to check my email and Kaitlin sent me an IM. I started talking to her and she mentioned she had guy problems. Well, I got kicked off a.o.l. so I called her. I even remembered her phone number! You sent it to me. Then I got to tell her my stories about Levi and Clint also! Awesome huh! I'm pumped! I got my license today too! I have so much to tell everybody! I want to write Dezidoo, Clint, Crystal, and Ashley. I have so much to say! Well, I better get started! Please forgive me!
Heart with cross,
Cara
U R
AWESOME!
Oh yeah! I read 1 Peter Ch. 3 and it talked about husbands and wives. TOTALLY COOL!
Dear God,
I long to be Christ-like.
I got 3 89's on my report card. I finished 1 Peter. I was crying. I read Psalms. The ones Shea told me to read. I cried again. I've been so grouchy today. Lately. God, make me humble. Please don't humiliate but give me a humble attitude. Thanks. Goodnight. I love you.
Heart with cross,
Cara
November 7
Dear God,
I am now reading Psalms. I am reading 5 a day. Actually, I might be reading 10 since I read in the morning also. Anyhow, Psalm 13 was awesome. It talked about being patient and trusting in you when our prayers aren't answered immediately. I liked it a lot. I really need to start working on my memory verses again. I should know them well. I just get so caught up in the day's activities that I forget I'm memorizing something. Besides Biology and English completely fry my brain. Well, help me to remember to look over those. In fact, I'll go do that right now.
Heart with cross,
Cara
PS I got to eat dinner yesterday w/ Dez and her family. Yesterday after our game I went to her church b/c she was having a garage sale. After that we stopped at Sonic and then took Clayton home. While we were at Sonic we talked about boyfriends and girlfriends. Brandon likes having girlfriends and Dez has told me how he lets it get out of hand. He's already had 3 different girlfriends in 12 weeks. Then that night we ate at El Arroyo. It was good. Anyways, that was my Sat. It was great. I wonder how David, Kerri, and Ricky did at regionals?
November 8
This morning in Psalm 18:29 it says "With God I can scale a building." It reminded me of church camp when we went to wake up the guys to go play b-ball. Taren scaled the building to knock on their window. Today was a good day. I didn't have a good soccer practice but it's all good. I can't wait until tomorrow evening. Dezidoodle is coming over. I'm excited! I can't wait! Well, I need some sleep. Goodnight! I (heart) you!
Heart with cross,
Cara
November 15
Dear God,
I read 41-46 in Psalms. I read last night too I just didn't feel like writing. God, I need your help. I'm a glutton! Please give me the desire to cut back and not eat so much.
Ryan got another pig and he got 3rd place at Academic Challenge. He goes on.
God, I need you. I'm crying out to you. Please help me. Change my attitude. Let it be Christ-like. Change my heart; make it pure and lovely. Change my bad habits; make them for the best. Help me to be the kind of friend I need to be w/ Crystal, Jessica and so forth. Help me to be more blunt and not be reluctant when it comes to telling the absolute truth. Help me to be blunt w/ Crystal but in a gentle, Christ-like manner! Thank you God. Please forgive me of my sins.
Heart with cross,
Cara
November 16
Dear God,
We played Dripping Springs today. Everybody lost. I can't wait until our tournament on Thursday. I'm ready to play hard. I've been real irritable and impatient lately but it was because I was about to start. I did. But still, I shouldn't be so annoyed and frustrated with those types of things. I got to talk to Lindsey again. She's doing okay but she's really struggling. God, please continue to help her. I really need some sleep. I read 4 Psalms. I'll read some more in the morn. Oh! I showed James 1:1-2 or 3 and Jer 29:11 to Lindsey. Then I let her listen to #4 on my Passion CD. It fit perfectly to what we were talking about. Thank you.
Heart with Cross,
Cara
November 17
Dear God,
Today was great! Crystal gave me my b-day present; b-ball practice went well; church was great. Crystal got me an American Eagle Fleece sweater. It's orange with blue edges. It's awesome! I felt like our team got a lot accomplished today at practice. At church we had an open mike. I talked about trials. Then Evelyn got up and told everyone that "someone" had come up to her and told her that I shared some scripture with her and that she was happy. That made me feel good. Actually great. Then after church Jessica came up to me and gave me a hug and started crying. She was crying b/c she tries so hard to be like me but she fails (in her own opinion). I told her she needs to quit trying to be like me and start being like you. She says it's hard to tell others about you b/c she "doesn't know anything". I told her she does know things and that she has to read her bible. I told her lots of other stuff too that you know I said but I can't remember. You know it exactly verbatim. Cool! Oh yeah! My mom told me that she almost thought I was borderline autistic but we'll never know. But whatever went on while I was a youngun ceased b/c you touched me. Thank you. I love you. I really need to go even though I could write to you all night. Goodnight. Sweet Dreams please!
Heart with cross,
Cara Bebee
November 18
God,
I'm tired. I read Psalms 55-60. I still don't have a clue which church to go to. My hips got messed up again at soccer practice. I still don't know if you want me to even play soccer. I had a b-ball tourney today. I had 4 points against Llano and 7 points against Crocket. We beat Crocket and lost to Llano. We went to Walmart. That was fun. I have to go shower now. I love you.
Heart with cross,
Carnurroee
November 19
Dear God,
Today was a great day. I got my Algebra homework done with Michael's help. The test was easy. The english test was a breeze and besides, we got to use our books. There were 6 essay questions all for EC. and I did all of them. I didn't do so well in biology but that's okay. B-ball was fun b/c it was just Coach Holt and we did lots of shooting. After practice Crystal came over and then we went to pick up Desiree. We had pizza and then we talked. Crystal fell asleep on the couch. We then read the first two chs of 1 Peter and then I took her home. We had a lot of fun. Well, I have a b-ball game tomorrow. I (heart) you! Please forgive me of my sins.
Heart with cross,
Cara
PS Desiree and Crystal were sitting on my bed and Crystal picked up this notebook and opened it. Desiree grabbed it closed it looked at and said I have this exact same thing, same color and I write to God in it too. I found that amazing.
PSS I'm soo glad when Crystal is here while Desiree and I are here b/c all Dez and I talk about is you and stuff and its good for Crystal to hear it. I love that. Thank you.
November 21
Dear God,
Today was a strange day. I slept on the couch at Crystal's house. When I woke up we watched The Cutting Edge. It was the whole Mitchell family plus me, Ryan, and Amir. Debbie made breakfast for us. It was soo good. Then I went home and got ready for my soccer game. It was our last one for the season. Anyways, Michelle didn't want to play goalie and I did so we switched. We lost 5-0. Every goal they made was impossible to block. There were all upper 90's and some in the middle. Only one was on the ground. Anyways, when I got home mom told me that we were going to Jessica's house for Jake's party. I went in my room and cried. Also, on the way to my soccer game my mom mentioned playing soccer for the Eagle's or someone else and college soccer. I cried then too. Well, I took a shower after I had quit crying and felt better. The party was good. When I had finished showering I was going to watch VeggieTales but indoor soccer was on. And the US team was playing. I found it kind of odd considering soccer is never on TV. I just don't know what you want me to do. I also need your help in prayer. Well, I found these verses that I really like in Psalms. Here they are:
If I had cherished sin in my heart, the Lord would not have listened, but God has surely listened and heard my voice in prayer.
Psalms 66:18-19
AND
You are awesome, O God, in your sanctuary; the God of Israel gives power and strength to his people. Praise be to God.
Psalms 68:35
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that reminded me of the ATM bonfire tragedy. Even though it was tragic a lot of good things have come out of it I'm sure. Just on the news they interviewed 3 people and the last girl said that she had been to church with some friends a few times and now she went b/c of that she said that b/c of this accident she is beginning to go to church. Also, people are looking for answers to why this would happen. Many people/students were at church this morning looking for the answer. Some will find it and some won't. I pray that they find it. I pray that they find you. You turn every bad, tragic thing around such as Columbine and the SYATP shooting. You are awesome in your sanctuary.
Heart with cross,
Cara
November 22
Dear God,
Wow, I wrote a lot yesterday. I overslept too. Today was a good day. I have a headache right now and I'm about to fall asleep. Tomorrow is our last day before Thanksgiving holidays. Wed. I'm going to Lyndsey Matula's house and Thurs we're going to our Great Aunt Dorothy's house. It's so fun out there. I can't wait. Tomorrow we play St. Michael. I hope we play well.
I read Psalms 77-80. 77 was long. It talked about how people kept going against you but you showed your wrath and took care of it. Well, I'm going to bed now. I'm sleepy. Goodnight. I love you. Please forgive me of my sins.
Heart with cross,
Cara
November 28
Dear God,
It's been awhile. We just had Thanksgiving break. We went to Aunt Shirley's house in Beeville. It was fun. We got to the semi finals in our tournament and lost in a shootout. I didn't play at all in the 2nd half.
On Wed. I went to Lindsey's slumber party. It was fun. We climbed their rock wall and watched movies. Lindsey, Candice and I didn't feel like watching A Night at the Roxbury so we went on top of the tower to talk. One thing happened that was so awesome. Right as Lindsey began to talk about how her past was so wrong and that the good couldn't make up for it it started to rain. It was as if you were purifying our hearts. It was awesome. Then we went to sit on the steps and Jessica Voight came out. She asked what we were doing and then went back inside after telling us how crazy we were. I realized how regardless the weather (it was raining and freezing), we wanted to talk about you and our lives. It was awesome. I'm not sure which Psalm I'm on b/c my LAB(NIV) is at Lindsey's house. I left it there on Thursday morning. Instead I read pretty much all of James. For what I'm going through right now Ch 4:6-10 really stuck out. I'll tell you about it tomorrow or something. I need some sleep.
Heart with cross,
Cara
November 29
God,
I have so much to say. I need to write it later. When I have more time. I cried a lot today. I'm so tired and frustrated. I don't want to carry on. I want to give up. But I won't. I will hang on. I look to the day when everything will be great and I can look back on this as just another trial. A long lasting one. I have to do a b-ball make-up tomorrow and I don't think I have the strength. Please lend me some of yours. I'm in dire need of help. I need your strength. Help me be positive. Help me. I'm crying out. Please help me and Desiree. We both need your strength. Help us God. Help me learn what I need to learn. To understand and remember. Help my prayers. They are weak. But you are strong. Please God. Please.
Heart with cross,
Cara
I don't feel worthy enough to ask you to answer my prayers.
November 30
Dear God,
Ahh! Today was so awesome. O.K. here goes. First of all, Dez wrote me a letter and gave it to me in Eng. She told me that we can get through this together and that we need to put our hope in your holy word. Oh, before that, I went to the bio. review and that helped a lot! Ok, so b-ball comes around and I get done with my make-up. It was so hard but coach lost track of how many full court horses I did so I only did for 4 rather than 5. Then I went and took the bio test and aced it. (I hope). I felt so much better b/c the reason why I started crying last night was b/c I didn't have y bio stuff and I had to do that b-ball make-up. Now that its over I feel strengthened again. In the game at Rockdale when I first went in my legs were dead. So I came out. During the 2nd half I got so angry at the other team for grabbing onto me that I got physical and got only 1 or 2 fouls called against me. I pushed a girl out of bounds and she got called for traveling. HAHA. We won by 2 points. SCARY. God, I pray for Candice and Desiree. Please help them. Comfort them. Thank you so much God. I love you. Please forgive me of my sins.
Heart with cross,
Cara
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